About

My name is Wesley. I am Chinese, but nobody thinks I am. I like the color pink. Hot pink. So pink it makes your eyes bleed. I take better care of my nails than most women. I am a sports fanatic. From time to time, I like to write and this is where I do it. Like it. Don’t like it. I don’t really care. This is my blog and I write what I want.

I wish I was like you, easily amused.

That’s the title of my blog. It dates back to when I started to post my ramblings on xanga in high school. Since I put that up, numerous people have asked me what it means. Usually, I would pass it off with the typical, but incredibly frustrating, “it means whatever you want it to mean,” as if I were some pompous songwriter. To be totally honest, when I first put it up, it was for no other reason than because I thought it was a cool lyric. That’s it. No special meaning at all. I just wanted to be that kid who was cool because he knew ambiguous lyrics and could make up some meaningful meaning to it. Yeah, I was a jackass. I was well on my way to being a pompous hipster. I just wanted to do something that stood out from everyone else. Some people would say I’m still somewhat like that. I think I’ve mostly moved on from it. Although, I still get some joy from knowing that I’m just a little smarter than most people. Hey, at least I’m honest about it.

I wish I was like you, easily amused.

It’s a Nirvana lyric. For those of you who had any music sense in grade school, depending on how old you are (yes, Andrea, when you’re only one year away from 30, you are old), you should know that it’s from “All Apologies”.

What else should I be, all apologies
What else should I say, everyone is gay
What else could I write, I don’t have the right
What else should I be, all apologies

In the sun, in the sun I feel as one
In the sun, in the sun, I’m married, buried
I wish I was like you, easily amused
Find my nest of salt, everything’s my fault
I’ll take all the blame, aqua sea foam shame
Sunburn with freezer burn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
In the sun, in the sun I feed as one
In the sun, in the sun, I’m married, buried
Married, buried
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

All in all is all we all are….

Although it’s hard to pick a definitive favorite Nirvana song, this is certainly one of them. Undoubtedly it has something to do with drugs. And certainly something to do with shame. But, I certainly am not going to claim that I know what this song is about. The beauty of Nirvana’s music is that, yes, it is ambiguous, but at the same time so full of meaning. Most artists who make the excuse of “it means whatever you want it to mean” are simply being lazy. Either there is an obvious meaning that a fourth grader should be able to understand or the lyrics are so ambiguous that no one really knows what the song is about. There are very few musicians who can actually get away with this. Interesting how these musicians never make the excuse “it means whatever you want it to mean.” They don’t care what other people think the song means. It means what it means to them and what anyone else thinks the song means really doesn’t matter.

Overtime, “I wish I was like you, easily amused” has actually come to mean something to me. Maybe it’s a sign of growing up. Maybe not. But, I think of this song whenever I feel boxed into a corner. When I want to lock myself in my room and not have anyone bother me. Or, when I have the urge to write something, but can’t quite figure out what it is I want to put down on paper. But, somehow, the words come and my fingers type.